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hafizah 300989 just average girl next door and extremely petite. don't ever make me mad because trust me,you won't like it. and that is all you need to know. click here for great bargains! friendster
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
the only reason i even bothered entertaining you,even when it's only online, is because im tired of holding a grudge against you. but that doesnt mean ive forgiven you. too much pain was inflicted. yes i cant deny the fact that there's still a tiny part of me that hopes you'll come back. but i'll just be wasting my time hoping and wondering. seriously,is it really that hard for you to say "im sorry"? ohh yes i remember. the big ego. and just when i thought you're "open" and talk things straight, you proved to me otherwise. if you're not worth it now, you're not gonna be in a week,a month, a year or even 10 years from now. Tuesday, October 24, 2006
first day of school was alright.it was good seeing everyone again.had one and a half hour lecture of basic microbiology.pretty interesting.the lecturer is so freaking cute.haha.ended school at 12 today.was supposed to meet sheena to break fast outside but i was too tired so didnt meet up with her.sorry (: anyway.ive got no school on wednesday and thursday!since this whole week there's no lab/tutorial.im going to do some real shopping.i need a shopping partner.but maybe i'll just go alone(which is really pathetic i know) since everyone's busy.well some alone time would be good i guess. ohh yeah.the applied science faculty decided that everyone should take 2 cds this semester.wtf.that's absurd.our timetable is already packed enough for god's sake.fortunately im not in the list since i have to retake one module.but i pity my friends who have to take an extra cds. ive got a pretty good feeling that it's going to be a great semester.well,hopefully.and im definitely aiming for at least a 2.5 for my gpa.studies all the way.no more unneccessary distractions,no more worthless fucked up shitheads who only disappoints me in the end and makes me depressed all over. i hope i'll get to meet the old school mates for raya visits.the whole bunch like last year.but doubt so because everyone's going to be busy with school.hopefully i'll see at least some of them. to all muslims,SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN (: Sunday, October 22, 2006
i havent been blogging for a whole week.was too caught up with work.anyway,my week at marina went well except that im seriously exhausted everyday after work.and im aching like mad.i love the staff there,especially my boss.he's damn nice la.and hot.i did returns for three days.doing returns was hell tiring but it was fun.haha. faridah gave me a total shock when she came into msq times office with her straightened short hair.she looks EFFING GORGEOUS.i swear i froze for like a few seconds thinking,who's this crazy girl who was shouting "fizah!" when she saw me?haha.i couldnt even recognise her.i wont be surprised if she has a line of guys asking for her number on the first week of school. ohh yeah, I'VE GOT FRENCH FOR NEXT SEMESTER!!! im so psyched.i cant wait for school.french is going to be a blast.the classes end at 7 though.but hell i dont care.im so ecstatic i can barely contain my excitement.and i'll still be in the same class as my friends although i have to repeat one more module.all is good (: except that my timetable's shitty. monday:9-3 tuesday:9-7 wednesday:9-6 thursday:11-6 friday:8-2 if it wasnt for mst1 i could have finish at 1 on thursdays.haiya.and i have 3 hours break on that day.damn it.the best thing is i end early on fridays.plus fridays are only lectures all the way. raya is in two days time.but im not in the mood for it this year.don't ask why.just not in the mood.i cant wait for school instead.haha.call me weird. okay i'll be sleeping damn late again.last chance before school reopens.haha Sunday, October 15, 2006
my room smells of...paint.i don't see what's the point of painting and everything when we're most probably going to be shifting in like two months time.sheesh. work today at centrepoint was alright but not as good compared to funan yesterday.the in charge doesnt trust me to do cashiering.wtf.there was once when the phone was ringing and there was a customer at the counter so i attended to the customer first.then ms tan quickly rush to the counter and said "it's okay you pick up the call because you don't know how to do cashiering".i was hell freaking pissed.obviously the staff at funan taught me cashiering already.we're not paid 5 bucks just to do recovery only,that would be seriously daft.but i didnt say anything back to her since it would sound rude.and even if i told her i already learned casheiring,i don't think she'd make the part timers become cashier anyway.and she gave me a hell long of a lecture.she was saying "if you keep telling people got no record i lose sales".SHITASS.i wasnt taught how to use the inquiry thing properly and she blames me for losing sales.wtf.and HELL her sales is way better than funan and probably anywhere else.what a bunch of bull. ohh yes nurul maideen approached me while i was working.i was really shocked.haha.she was asking me for sudoku books.at first i didnt believe it was her.i was thinking i recognised her from somewhere.then i asked her if she was from singapore idol(which is really stupid but i dont watch the show,well only a few glimpses of it that's why) and she just smiled and nodded.im not a big fan of singapore idol but i was quite overwhelmed.it's not everyday a local star comes up to you to ask you for something.hehh. and yesterday i was approached by some hair stylist for a free hair cut.he needed a volunteer but i was against it because i wanted to keep my hair long.haha.and plus i just cut it recently. time really flies.im only left with 9 days of holidays then it's school time.and work is going to take up most of my time for the last week of holidays.full shift from monday till friday(most probably) at marina. cant wait for the big bucks. (: this is like 4 days late,but heck it. to nadirah, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY! may Allah bless you always. hope we can celebrate our birthdays soon.(: is that what i really want,deep down inside? Monday, October 09, 2006
BLOODY HELL.my period just came.haiya.it always comes at the wrong timing.this is exactly why i hate periods. Sunday, October 08, 2006
it's amazing how colours can tell almost exactly how you're feeling. http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm You are very ambitious and because you seek and need recognition, you try in your own way to impress people and you want to be looked up to - to be both popular and admired. You feel that there is a gap which separates you from your fellow man, or woman as the case may be, but this anxiety is an unnecessary one. Keep on the way you are going and you may surprise yourself. (i dont think the recognition thing is true and i certainly do not want to be popular and admired) For some time now you may have been subjected to considerable physical illness and or emotional distress. This may have taken a severe toll and you feel both physically and mentally worn out. Your self esteem has been reduced and you now need a peaceful environment which will permit you to effect full recovery. Many people will consider you egotistical and full of your own self importance. On the surface you could well give this impression and perhaps the reason for this complacent attitude is because at times you indeed have that 'short fuse' and are quick to take offence. There is a suppressed anxiety which may be the result of an unsatisfactory or discordant personal relationship. This has led or is leading to unwarranted excess stress and tension. You are angry, uptight and feeling the physical effects of this anxiety. It is essential that you calm down, your physical well-being could be in jeopardy. It would seem that most of your stress is a result of an unsatisfactory relationship. You have tried, or are considering the possibility of trying to restore the love and trust situation - but so far - perhaps to no avail. So the situation is regarded as depressing and this unhappy state continues to aggravate the situation to a point of complete helplessness. Overwork - be it mental stress or physical strain, you are completely worn out and this depleted vitality has created an intolerance for any further stimulation. You feel disappointed with your obvious lack of energy and powerless to do anything about it. You are angry with yourself and this frustration shows. You are contradictory and argumentative and feel helpless to change the situation at this time. Take a break - even if it is only for a few days - allow yourself to breath, to unwind - you'll feel much better for it. Then trust and let go. anyway, yesterday when i was withdrawing money,there was this cute toddler who came up to me and tugged my skirt.haha.so freaking cute and chubby.and she was in a white dress and all which makes her look even cuter.hahaha.omfg.SO CUTE i tell you. work at funan was not bad.okay i seriously love the place there including the staff.learned cashiering and did recovery.and i just got back from centrepoint.paula showed me the whole place and i just did recovery the whole time.hmm.i thought of quitting my job at first because they only call me when they need me.but then again,where else can you find a job where you earn 5 bucks an hour and all you do is just arrange the books and youre even allowed to read?haha.i dont think the workload is worth 5 bucks an hour though.but hell im not complaining.i love my job.if only they call me often to work.ah well. im starting to get irritated with guys who flirt.really.i wouldnt mind if it's in a subtle way.but if they start flirting very obviously and say stupid things until it gets so cocky it will just fucking piss me off.okay this post is pretty random.im just bored.(: Thursday, October 05, 2006
got back my supp paper result and i need to retake maths for the next semester.not surprising.sigh.i expected it but i still had that tiny bit of hope that i would make it through.i wont beat myself over all the careless mistakes i did.and i wont cry over spilt milk although i admit im fucking disappointed in myself and im probably at the lowest point of my life right now.im not trying to get sympathy out of this post but seriously ive never been so down because of studies until now.but then again im looking forward to get an A for maths.and at least a 2.5 for my gpa next semester. the thing that really brings me down is that i used to do okay in my studies and now when i fail,it makes me even harder to pick myself up.feels like everything isnt going my way but that's life.and i guess my whole life's about to change in a few more months.most of you wouldnt know what im talking about,only my closest friends. for now let's just say everything's not okay. Sunday, October 01, 2006
yesterday was kinda great.went to break fast at simpang bedok with roy.thanks for the treat (: then went to the airport to meet sheena,rozniza,shi hui,tai jin,meixuan and sarah.and when i got to the viewing mall,they sang me a birthday song with a mini cake! thanks guys.it was really sweet.well i was alittle embarrassed because people were staring but heck.it was a nice feeling.hahaha. gee i feel so old turning 17.haha.anyway,the sweetest thing was all the birthday messages i received in my phone and friendster.i couldnt sleep last night eventhough i went to bed freaking early.messages kept coming in even until after sahur all the way till the afternoon.haha.and although this year i didnt really get alot of presents but im not complaining.the fact that you guys remembered was really good enough.and each message made me smile.thanks guys ((: well today was nothing much.pretty boring actually.i felt pretty low for some reason but i dont know why.stayed at home and rot the whole day.after that then went to break fast with sheena.thanks sheena!hope you get well soon okay. eunice and nadirah,i miss you guys so bloody much.sigh.the last time i saw you guys was like eons ago.hope we meet up very very soon. ohh im starting work today later.im feeling all jittery again.i hope no jinx this time please.the last time i work retail at the branch was fucking shitt. to fuad, |